I posted the following photo on my Facebook.....someone commented about how unsure I looked on the Left.
I look unsure because I was!! Every birthday I write some sappy stuff and I'm sure the boy will read it in the future. I will give it a break this year and laugh at myself. I gave birth at 3:02 am.....they then took the boy to the nursery and I went to my room. They brought him back to me around 7am....
This was left in my room while I was in the bathroom.....
Literally....I came out of the bathroom and there was a baby in my room....no nurse....just this baby I had seen for 10 minutes at 3am before they whisked him away and I passed out (terrible birth story on that but that's another blog). SO I took the picture above...... Just me and the boy in the room on July 6th 2008.
I sat there and stared at him for 15 minutes or so..... looking back it reminds me of some national geographic documentary where a mommy animal isn't sure about its baby. I didn't really know what I was suppose to do with him. I paged the nurse..... She comes in and I ask her.... "what do I do with him?" She looks at me and says...."whatever you want, he's yours". "Do i pick him up?" I ask..... "do you want to pick him up?" She asks...... "maybe?"
So I picked him up....and THEN I fell in love with that little baby. We had a delayed attachment...well a few hour delay nothing insane.... because I was so unsure of myself.
I never let him go. I got reprimanded multiple times in the hospital for falling asleep with him but he was mine so like the nurse said....I was going to do whatever I wanted with him.
I let that kid sleep in my bed till he was two.....talk about not letting go ;) .
Happy 7th Birthday Frankie
You have grown to be more amazing then we